few works describe as well the very specific feelings that transition brings. a year and something into mine there is now something in my soul that won't let me sink into despair anymore
I'm not trans but when this was first released I played every single new game on Newgrounds habitually. This game moved me deeply. Your playable story presented the first trans perspective I had ever seen, and I've listened to and empathized with every trans person I've encountered since. After playing it I started taking sociology and gender studies classes at school, and I even brought up your game to my teachers back then. I've protested for trans rights in the intervening years. I'd like to think I would have gotten here on my own but the truth is I never even thought about the trans experience until I played your game. Thank you.
Hi Anna. I had a revelation a while ago when I was looking back on how I figured out I was trans. I knew back in 2014, but I was trying to remember if there was anything that helped me discover that. It all clicked when a friend was showing me your games, and I recognized Dys4ia. I had completely forgotten I'd played this game way back when you released it on Newgrounds! It was my first exposure to what being trans was from a trans person, not from disgusting internet bigots and everyday skeptics. I remembered the feelings I felt playing it, both how happy I was for you, and how weird and vulnerable I suddenly felt about myself.
If it weren't for you, my journey as a trans woman might've happened a lot later. So I want to thank you for taking the time all those years ago to be vulnerable yourself and tell your story. Your small game changed my life in a massive way <3
I'm sorry for not being very clear, what I meant was that the game is free, but it's in a .zip file, so to access the game itself, I would need to pay winzip to decompress it. But please, forget the matter, one of my friends who has winzip decompressed it for me.
For future reference, your computer can extract .zip files without paying for anything. Even if it couldn’t somehow, there are free programs like 7zip that can do it, too. Godspeed.
This game came out when I was a sophomore in high school, and I played it on Newgrounds. I already knew I was trans, and making strides to socially transition. I finally started my own HRT journey last week, and dys4ia has been on my mind a lot as a result. Playing it for the first time filled me with so much hope and determination. It made me feel like I could be alive, and happy.
I know that part of the reason it went offline for so many years is because the spotlight was intense, especially in those days when trans issues were almost unheard of in most households and the general public infosphere. I was sad when it disappeared, but I also understood. I still understand. But I'm so happy to see it again. I've never put a piece of myself online like this, so I can't imagine the amount of work that's gone into offering it up again. I appreciate that you made the game. I appreciate that you've made it available. I appreciate the work, and the hope, and the pain that you put into it.
You shined so much hope on kid me in a time where I needed it desperately. You made me feel real, and seen. I'll love your work for as long as I live.
Tried downloading whisky, but it couldn't be opened. However, if you download the flash player app, right click dys4ia.app and select "Show package contents," open the resources folder inside the contents folder, and run movie.swf, the game runs without issue.
This is unfortunately a problem with old flash games and I no longer have access to a dev environment where I could update the game! So, regrettably, none of my standalone flash games will run on new Mac computers.
As a trans woman, this game is very beautiful. Thanks for making something like this. I played this on Flashpoint, but I wanted to tell you how much I loved it. :3
I was reading "A Game Design Vocabulary" when I saw a mention of this game in it, it was very engaging and helped me get a better grasp of one of the two writers of the book and see her work first-hand. Also, knowing I'm trans but being stressed about transitioning (and trans healthcare being a rarity here smh) this was a great way to understand the trans experience(the wild ride never ends). We will see what the future holds.
I've been monologuing but in conclusion: thx 4 the game :)
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few works describe as well the very specific feelings that transition brings. a year and something into mine there is now something in my soul that won't let me sink into despair anymore
I'm not trans but when this was first released I played every single new game on Newgrounds habitually. This game moved me deeply. Your playable story presented the first trans perspective I had ever seen, and I've listened to and empathized with every trans person I've encountered since. After playing it I started taking sociology and gender studies classes at school, and I even brought up your game to my teachers back then. I've protested for trans rights in the intervening years. I'd like to think I would have gotten here on my own but the truth is I never even thought about the trans experience until I played your game. Thank you.
Hi Anna. I had a revelation a while ago when I was looking back on how I figured out I was trans. I knew back in 2014, but I was trying to remember if there was anything that helped me discover that. It all clicked when a friend was showing me your games, and I recognized Dys4ia. I had completely forgotten I'd played this game way back when you released it on Newgrounds! It was my first exposure to what being trans was from a trans person, not from disgusting internet bigots and everyday skeptics. I remembered the feelings I felt playing it, both how happy I was for you, and how weird and vulnerable I suddenly felt about myself.
If it weren't for you, my journey as a trans woman might've happened a lot later. So I want to thank you for taking the time all those years ago to be vulnerable yourself and tell your story. Your small game changed my life in a massive way <3
Can someone please put a non-zip file version here(in the comments)? I'd rather not pay to play this game
this game's free, dude
I'm sorry for not being very clear, what I meant was that the game is free, but it's in a .zip file, so to access the game itself, I would need to pay winzip to decompress it. But please, forget the matter, one of my friends who has winzip decompressed it for me.
For future reference, your computer can extract .zip files without paying for anything. Even if it couldn’t somehow, there are free programs like 7zip that can do it, too. Godspeed.
I love this game
learned about this game from a trip to mopop in seattle, it's featured in the indie game showcase!
beautiful <3
Really beautiful game, like, wow
Thank you.
This game came out when I was a sophomore in high school, and I played it on Newgrounds. I already knew I was trans, and making strides to socially transition. I finally started my own HRT journey last week, and dys4ia has been on my mind a lot as a result. Playing it for the first time filled me with so much hope and determination. It made me feel like I could be alive, and happy.
I know that part of the reason it went offline for so many years is because the spotlight was intense, especially in those days when trans issues were almost unheard of in most households and the general public infosphere. I was sad when it disappeared, but I also understood. I still understand. But I'm so happy to see it again. I've never put a piece of myself online like this, so I can't imagine the amount of work that's gone into offering it up again. I appreciate that you made the game. I appreciate that you've made it available. I appreciate the work, and the hope, and the pain that you put into it.
You shined so much hope on kid me in a time where I needed it desperately. You made me feel real, and seen. I'll love your work for as long as I live.
Made my day better
quite nice
Thanks for making this <3
Tried downloading whisky, but it couldn't be opened. However, if you download the flash player app, right click dys4ia.app and select "Show package contents," open the resources folder inside the contents folder, and run movie.swf, the game runs without issue.
Thank you for creating this!
I can't seem to get this to play on my mac, the OS says the application requires updating? I'm on Sonoma 14.4.1, many thanks.
This is unfortunately a problem with old flash games and I no longer have access to a dev environment where I could update the game! So, regrettably, none of my standalone flash games will run on new Mac computers.
Sigh - it seems that a .swf type flash can be loaded, just not a compiled .app...
Would it be possible to get the transcript in a text format?
heya - the Windows version runs great on new Macs with the (free) Whisky app. https://getwhisky.app/
Install the app, double click dys4ia.exe, i think it will prompt you to create a new "Bottle" and you should be good.
Yes! Worked!
Thanks!
great! thanks for sharing this.
As a trans woman, this game is very beautiful. Thanks for making something like this. I played this on Flashpoint, but I wanted to tell you how much I loved it. :3
Thank you for making this
I was reading "A Game Design Vocabulary" when I saw a mention of this game in it, it was very engaging and helped me get a better grasp of one of the two writers of the book and see her work first-hand. Also, knowing I'm trans but being stressed about transitioning (and trans healthcare being a rarity here smh) this was a great way to understand the trans experience(the wild ride never ends). We will see what the future holds.
I've been monologuing but in conclusion: thx 4 the game :)
Back in 2014 Matpat shouted this out in a vid and that's how I found out trans people existed
I'm now a trans woman lmao
hell yeah. fuck yeah
you really do become aware that transition is a possibility from the most random sources huh
i really liked it. it was beautiful and tysm for making this :)
absolutely beautiful game, thank you so much for making this
This game taught me so much about what games could be. Thank you for making it!
I love this game so much, and have taught it for years in my college classes. Thank you so much for making it.
Windows Defender says it contains a Trojan (Trojan:Script/Wacatac.B!ml).